Tuesday, February 1, 2011
I traveled to the FCI Highland Park office yesterday morning for my blood pregnancy test. From my previous experiences, I had decided that I would work in the morning and take the afternoon off to be prepared to receive the phone call with the results. I had requested that my nurse or doctor be the person to call as I knew this could be a hard phone call to receive. Right around noon, I received the call from my nurse, Charlene, who broke the devastating news to me. All I could do was cry. In between breaking the news to family and friends for the next hour and crying, I decided that I needed to do something to make myself feel happier and as if I was taking action toward a better ending. I immediately contacted Mindy Berkson, who we had spoken to in December to find out how we could get started in the surrogacy process. During our January cycle, Greg and I had talked a lot about our "plan B" and decided that we would find a way to make surrogacy work. It was great to talk to Mindy and know that she would be able to help us through the surrogacy process. She sent us her contract to look over and in the meantime we would talk to Dr. Beltsos in a week to discuss this cycle and next steps. That night Greg and I prayed for strength, as well as a sign as to whether or not surrogacy should be our next step.